What do you do when it seems everyones against you. The phrase "You can't take on the world alone" or "Your never alone someone always cares about you" and while that may be true. Those people are never there when you need them... You know where they are? Getting ready for their pool party I wasn't invited to! Thanks guys you're some swell friends... I'm glad to know while you and everyone other one of my friends is having fun. I wasn't invited. Home alone. Waiting to fall asleep. No I'm not a tired teenage boy that sleeps a lot. I'm a bored teenage boy that sleeps to pass the time. Isn't that sad? You hear of people eating because it's that time of day and you eat. But no, I sleep because it's halfway through my day and I just can't take it anymore...

And bluntly to all of my "friends"

FUCK YOU

Your all hypocritical bitches... "You need to get out more can't spend your whole life playing a game" and that goes for my parents too... Your so eager for me to go out into the world? Why the world's a horrible place where everyone just uses you to get ahead... I quit what made me happy. And I felt good for awhile. To go out into the world and I had something to do everyday. But there is still such a thing as free time. But my free time has grown immensely. I now have no time that isn't free time. Some people out there may say I'm lucky. No work, no school, no responsibilites. But put yourself in my shoes. Am I? If you didn't have to work (8 hours) no kids (-5+ hours). If you didn't have to cook, clean, laundry or chores. What would you do? Daytime TV sucks. Video Games only last you so long. I'm pacing my room dying for something. Yes I hated school. Homework, Work, Annoying Lectures. It wasn't fun. It wasn't easy. But it was something. It took up 7 hours. When I got home I could play games and relax. I barely had time to fit everything I wanted to do in before bed.

But now. I come back and I'm bored. I hated the stuff I did on the game it was like a job. But it was something and I'm having trouble to get back into that... So to my friends. Thanks, you took away my happiness promising me so much more. Then you go have a pool party and didn't even invite me... Hell you don't even talk to me anymore. I understand when people graduate and move on it's hard. But I haven't left yet, I'm not leaving for 2 years... But you already left me... Replaced me with some new boyfriend. I can't always be there for you just when you don't have one. And you got a full time job. I'm so happy for you I really love you so much and doing something you love. And I worry because it's so outside with you being a lifeguard and all. And your boyfriend who I've been in love with for 2 years. How close I am to him and how awesome he is. And he doesn't invite me to his pool party. Which is fine... But he won't answer the phone, answer facebook. How is this friendship? The next time I'll see and talk to you is band camp if I go... Which I really don't plan on it anymore... I may go and bring some yummy lunch for the people who do care about me... Just to get to you because that's who I am... You'll come give me a hug and joke where's mine... and i'll pull out the sweet little panda you got me. And I'll say "Here" this is for you... Or hey I may just drop it off at your door today... And tell you to have a happy pool party that I wasn't invited too... Not the fact that I wanted to go. Honestly I don't know anyone there and I didn't want to... Besides you being hot and shirtless and all... But I wasn't even invited to decline... Your mom is a better friend to me...

Sometimes I wish I could just disappear and never come back... No boredom... Nothing... It's so frustrating always having to find something to do. At least with FFXI there was tons to do. Like it or not you have options. But now I can't stand it. Since you all made me quit... So thanks... For effectively ruining the only thing I had going for me in my life... By trying to make me better and more normal only to realize that's not me... And what do you do? Abandon me...

So Thank You Friends

From yours Truly,

Eneune